I know
there’s a lot more to say about Guinea than I have in me right now. As I may have intimated before, some of this
is for reasons of privacy; my employer has been central to most of the drama
that’s happened to me over the last few months.
Which makes sense, since most of my time has been taken up by work, and
my home and social life have revolved around my colleagues out of
necessity. This blog is one of the first
things that comes up when my name is googled, and I know it’d be bad form to
air any grievances about my employer, which means that most of what I’ve spent
the last six months talking about (to my friends, to Jenn, to myself) is out of
bounds. (Incidentally, expect another,
less complainy post not long after this one, to push this down from the top of
the page.)
But enough
of what I’m not going to talk about. How
was Guinea?
As far
as I can tell, nobody comes to Guinea on purpose. That makes sense on its face: between the
malaria, the political instability, the lack of access to stable power or
internet, and the cratered, sunken roads that are always choked with traffic,
this isn’t anyone’s first choice. The
diplomatic corps staff members were all assigned here because of their lack of
seniority or unpopularity in the department—this is a necessary evil for most
of them, a first step before they can be assigned to literally anywhere
else. As you might imagine, this leads
to some pretty frikkin’ gross ‘tudes, gross enough that I wrote and deleted a
long post shining a spotlight on the racist nonsense that comes out of their
mouths sometimes. Most of the expats
here spend their time complaining about it—a common enough thing in cushier
destinations like Japan, too, though here that note of bitterness is even more
common.
As for
me? Despite all the corruption, the
difficulty in recreating a middle-class American lifestyle here, the daily
inconveniences? I like it here!
I’m
walking a fine line on this one, I know.
Media is awash in depictions of Africa as a place of unrelenting
tragedy, and I don’t want to make this yet another bout of indulging in “Heal
the World”-type pathos. On the other
hand, emphasizing what a lovely time I had would seem to be just wallowing in
my own privilege, especially when, yes, Guinea suffers from terrible
unemployment, corruption, medical crises, failing infrastructure, and more of
the hallmarks of perennially exploited countries [/handwringing].
I would
come back here, though. I would live in
Guinea again, even in Conakry. I don’t
know if Guinea and Guineans are all that distinct compared to other West
African nations, if living in Senegal or Cote d’Ivoire or Ghana would have all
the positive points of living here with fewer negatives. From my own experiences, though, I know that
much like people, places are absolutely formed by their history. The scars of occupation in Seoul or Berlin,
for example, are clearly critically important parts of those cities’
identities…and if that’s a self-built identity, one designed for tourists, that
doesn’t make it any less important or authentic.
For the
armchairiest of historical speculation: Guinea was the first West African
nation to gain independence from France.
It did so nonviolently, but aggressively, definitively, casting out
French influence to forge its own future, and has served as an example of African
independence for decades since. It’s
also gotten extremely thoroughly screwed over by France, more so than many
other former colonies, and according to the popular sentiment here, the fact
that the French took everything with them when they left has been largely responsible
for Guinea having such a rough go of it.
So
basically, after being devastated and having generations of its people
kidnapped and murdered, Guinea has still gotten the short end of the stick
(less foreign investment, more neocolonial pillagers at the door). It’s just that now, this time, that raw deal
has been the unfortunate result of decisions that Guinea made for itself. I know that can’t be any consolation to the
families with no potable water and no mosquito nets, but from a cold,
heartlessly romantic perspective, I think Guinea has something to be proud of.
To take
it back to the personal: the people I’ve met here have been welcoming,
friendly, and warm. Some of the
encounters I’ve had have been among the most beautiful moments of my life. Jamming with friends—my ukulele, their traditional Kissian
polyphonic singing. Watching the sun set
over the giant, unfinished stadium while bats flit overhead and the call
to prayer suffuses the air in plaintive, cracking voices. Hearing my students grow to express themselves
more every day (one of my students, searching for a word to use when discussing
the behavior of mosquitoes, hit on “heart water”).
One of
the hardest things about living abroad is the realization that you’ve never
“done” anywhere. As long as I’ve spent
anywhere I’ve lived or visited, there’s never been a moment where I thought, “I
never need to come back to this place” (except maybe Sagada). Even if Guinea wasn’t on my list of places to
visit before, it’s definitely on my list of places to revisit now.
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Guess I
had more in me than I’d thought. Tune in
next time for more photos of adorable children!